So I admit, I am not a candidate for friend of the year, but I know that I definitely NOT a candidate for the worst friend of the year.
Two of my friends (I think they are still my friends), Christina and Sandra, seem to think that I have been MIA since New Years. The fact of the matter is I HAVE NOT. Have I had full blown conversations with them? No. Have I seen them? No. But thru quick like small chat, I've texted them and written them on either email, myspace, or facebook.
I have NOT been MIA, I have been where I always am. Work and Home. And somewhere in between I have managed to make time to plan and host (thank God for Kristi's help!) Clarice's baby shower and now I'm doing the same for Candice. Plus on top of all that, I have still been able to spend quality time with Malachi, my sister, and other family. Not to mention that my Aunt Sherrie flys in Thursday night.
The last two days they have 'expressed' their disapproval and I really feel like shit. I truly don't understand. Maybe because they are both non-mothers they don't understand the time and energy a child(ren) can take out of you. I'd hate to think that was the case considering Sandra has been in my life since before Malachi and Christina since Chi was an infant. If they don't understand by now, I'm not sure they ever will.
I am under the assumption that they both think that I am blowing them off for a guy, which is not at all the case. If anything, I feel like I've been blowing him off. My life is still in a tornado-like state and I am still trying to get myself put back together. I'm not sure of what I want or where exactly I'm headed. All I know is what is solid for me right now. And that is work and Chi, so that's what I've been leaning on.
Again, I am venting. I'm so upset at all of this that I had to type out my frustrations. I really had no other choice. Crying at work just isn't good for me.
1 comment:
If you haven't already try to explain to them what you just wrote in your blog. Everyone goes through times when they are busy and friends think they are blowing them off...but that's hardly ever the case. It's been a busy new year (and that's only 20 days) so I can't imagine why they wouldn't understand.
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